14/10/2010

Completed morning program.Vikas rang up on 8th Feb.and wanted to know if I was going to attend a dinner where he was going.I told him that I had not been invited and that I was leaving for Dhanbad in the afternoon.I felt bad for not being invited for dinner,knowing fully well that even if I had been invited I would not have gone.Last month I attended only 2 dinner/lunch out of 10 to which I was invited.Outside food does not suit me much.But it appears my ego would be satisfied if I was invited to dinners/luncheon where others were invited,even though I did not/could not attend many of them.This egoist hypocrisy has to be shaken off as soon as possible.Some people use invitation/non-invitation as favor or disfavor and use them as pressure to compel/induce subservience.It is just like Pakistan organizing attacks by militants as pressure points.Some people are partying type and like to attend parties.We were also partying type earlier.But now we prefer to avoid going to parties unless it is absolutely necessary.
We visited Gurgaon to attend birthday party of Aryan.As we were tired,we retired to sleep early at 2130 hours.