24th Nov.

Completed morning program. Visited CGHS & SBI,Vikaspuri. In chamber from 1 to 4 pm. Along with Atiar, attended a meeting with Astro officials in Surya from 4.15 to5.30pm. During the day, Vishnuji came and took away a copy of his biodata, given to me earlier. Talked to Vikas, Sapra, Atiar, SP FTP and some others. JP Sharma, a retired IPS Officer, talked to me about his case and problems, faced by him. I told him to come with his case file. Jitendra Sharma, an executive of ASSOCHAM, invited me to attend a conference on Intellectual Property Rights in Plaza hotel . His Director did not agree to the attendance of other Advocates including Vikas Pahwa without payment of 50% of the contribution. I informed him that due to that none would attend except me. As i am leaving for FTP tomorrow, i would attend for a short time.

Retired to sleep at 10.30pm.

23rd Nov.

Completed morning program. Visited CGHS and SBI. In chamber from 1 to 3pm. Pravesh, Atiar, Vshnuji, Mala, P.S. to DCBI rang up. Discussed with Venita a plan to visit Pondichery during winter vacations. It will be less cold there. Life is beautiful when you create the right environment. For us it should neither be too cold nor too hot. Pondicherry will have right environment, a mix of spiritual, natural, right temperature,art,cuisine, to spend some good time

Retired to sleep at 10.30pm.

22nd Nov.

Completed morning program minus some exercises.Lot of time was taken by the electrician in fixing the tube light as instructed by Venita. Visited PNB & SBI PBB. Met Pravesh. When i reached chamber, a lunch was going on in it. I waited outside to let it finish. In chamber from 1.30 to 3pm. I left my cell at residence. I could not talk to quite a few persons. I did not remember their numbers. On way back, visited Hanuman temple in Chanakyapuri. Puja's driver came and collected bag sent by Ruchi. A letter came from the Police Hqrs that they would not take S.C. Varma's .303 rifle, now with me,for keeping it in Police museum as agreed to by them earlier and permitted by the Govt. of India. I will take up the matter with Commissioner of police again.

Life goes on like that. Let me try to make it more purposeful. I am renovating the ancestral house with a view to use it for a school for children who are handicapped in one way or the other.

Retired to sleep at9.45pm

21st Nov.

Completed morning program.Visited SBI Vikaspuri. In chamber from 12.30 to 4 pm.Pradeep came.We discussed misc. things. Pravesh rang up. Wished Subhash & Sunita on their anniversary. They are at Dwarkadhish. Subhash sent a sms "Its been a long day of godly darshans".Met Babloo and gave prasad. Puja was to send her peon to collect a bag, given by Venita. But none came.

Someone so healthy and handsome all of a sudden becomes sick and cannot lead a normal life. In a situation of this kind, what should one do? What our Shastras lay down ? What our wisdom says? We should do all that we can to enable him lead a normal life. Are we doing enough ? Let us find out what we have not been able to do. Let us ponder over it and discuss among ourselves and work out a plan of action.

Retired to sleep at 11.30 pm.

20th Nov.

Completed morning program. Had pain in the left shoulder. Somehow did exercises. Pest control came. Had to call them due to collection of tiny flying insects on spices.PC Sharma came. After a two hour sleep i notice that much pain has gone. Rakesh rang up and insisted that i must attend his daughter's marriage at Lucknow on 26th. Venita says i need not go. It will be taxing. I will go by her advice. We talked of holidays at Thimpu, Gangtok,Palampur & Pondichery. Venita suggested Palampur. We will soon decide about it. It would be advisable to go to south in winters.

Retired to sleep at about 11.30pm.

19th Nov.

Completed morning program. Spent the day at home talking to Venita. Planned visit to Fatehpur.

Propose to leave for Fatehpur on 25th Nov. and return on 29th by Prayagraj. Have to decide about further repairs to the ancestral house and visit the family of late Naresh Bhaisaheb. Pravesh and Sanjiv rang up. Have some pain in the left shoulder. May be due to sudden change in weather temperature.

Retired to sleep at 10.30pm.

17th & 18th Nov.

On17th

Completed morning program.Venita returned after Devi Darshan Tour. She visited 8 Devi temples, 2 Shiva temples & 1 Ram temple in all. It was a five day tour. In chamber from 1.20 to 6 pm. Retired to sleep 11.30 pm.

On 18th

Completed morning program. Visited CGHS & SBI. In chamber from 1.30 to 4.45 pm. Mala, Pravesh & Madhav called. Retired to sleep at 10.15 pm

8th to 16th Nov.

On 8th :

Completed morning program. In chamber from 11.30am-12.15 pm and 2.15pm-4pm. Visited Pravesh and discussed terms of consultancy in a case. Discussed legal opinion in the matter of Frigoglass (Pvt.) India Ltd. We will discuss with Sh.KTS next day at 5.30pm. Retired to sleep at 10.45pm.

On 9th :

Completed morning program. In chamber from 12.30.3.20pm. Had a conference in Oberoi hotel in a case. In chamber from 5.45-7pm. Conference with KTS along with Sh. Atiar in the matter of Frigoglass (Pvt.) India Ltd. Retired to sleep at 11pm.

On 10th:

Completed morning program. It is Gur Purnima today. PC Sharma came. But could not meet him as I had to go to Rajouri garden where Venita is waiting for me. She is leaving for Dharmshala tomorrow. Retired to sleep at 11pm.

Venita's DEVI DARSHAN TOUR

On 11th:

Completed morning program. In chamber from 12.30-3pm. Seen off Venita at old Delhi railway station. Due to traffic jam we almost missed the train. Thanks to the initiative of Venita, we left the car in the jam and walked fast to the train. We caught it just a few minutes prior to its departure. I will write to the Commissioner of Police about the jams which are common in the area. Retired to sleep at 12.30am.

On 12th:

Completed only walk. Venita reached Dharmashala. The train was one and half hour late to reach Pathankot. Instead of reaching at 8am, it reached at about 9.30am. She went to Chamundi and Baijnath temples today. Talked to Addl. SP Dharmshala, SP Bilaspur and IGP Chandigarh for Venita's accommodation during Devi darshan tour. New tiles are fixed in Venita's toilet. Pravesh rang up. retired to sleep at 11.30am.

On 13th:

Completed morning program. Venita visited Kangra Vajreswari , Banglamukhi, Masroorr and Jwalaji temples. She liked Jwalaji temple very much. Talked to Bablu, Silku, Ruchi, Shanno and Bitti. Later Talked to SP Bilaspur (Santosh), ASI Kasmir Singh, incharge Naina Devi temple Police outpost. Sh.Kulshresth, the contractor who is getting the repairs/white wash done in the flat also came. Retired to sleep at midnight.

On 14th:

Completed morning program. Venita visited Chintpurni temple. She halted at NainaDevi for the night. It is about 190 kms. from Dharamshala on way to Chandigarh. Did not go to the chamber as the repair work in the flat continued. I would like to buy Mac Book Pro, a laptop of Apple. Retired to sleep 11.30 pm.

On 15th:

Completed morning program. White-washing of my bedroom was completed. The plumber fitted the wash basin and WC in Venita's toilet.

Venita visited NainaDevi temple early morning and reached Chandigarh at about 12.30 pm. Pradeep fixed her accommodation in UT guest house near Chandigarh lake. For her journey from Dharmshala via Chintpurni and then back to Dharmshala , taxi charged over Rs.4500/-. As it does not get passengers from Chandigarh to Dharamshala quite often, it charged for return journey of 300 kms. as agreed to by Venita.

Attended a meeting at Oberoi hotel. The client was informed that payment could be made from his different companies. But the payment would have to be made by cheque so that I know the name of the company of the client which is paying for my services.

Venita met Pradeep and his family at Chandigarh before retiring to sleep. Earlier she went for a walk along the Chandigarh lake along with her friend, Smt.Manorama Gupta, who accompanied her during the tour.

Retired to sleep at 11.30pm.

On 16th:

Completed morning program.

Venita visited Mansa Devi, Kalka and Shiv temples at Chandigarh. She has visited the temples during the tour as follows:

1) 12.11- Day 1- 1. Chamundi temple. 2. Baijnath Shiv temple.

2) 13.11- Day 2- 1. Kangra Vajreshwari temple. 2. Baglamukhi temple. 3. Jwalaji temple. 4. Masrurr temple.

3) 14.11- Day 3- Chintpurni temple.

4) 15.11- Day 4- Naina Devi temple.

Arrived Chandigarh. Rested.

5) 16.11- Day 5- 1. Mansa Devi temple. 2. Shiv temple. 3. Kalka Devi temple & attached Gurudwara.

She has visited in all 11 temples .8 of these are Devi,2 Shiva & one Ram temple. The Dharmshala and Bilaspur belt of Himanchal is studded with Devi temples along with some Shiva temples. Goddess Parvati was the daughter of Himalayas.

Retired to sleep at about 11pm.

7th NOV.

Completed morning program. Pravesh rang up and wanted time for conference in a case. I told that it was not possible today. We could meet next day at 11.30am. He said that he would let me know.

Elder sister rang up. I could not control my tears and sobs when we discussed Naresh Bhaisaheb's death yesterday at about 7.30pm. Guddu rang up. I told I won't be able to join in cremation which is to take place today at 11am at Fatehpur.

Reminiscences : Naresh Bhaisaheb

I became close to Bhaisaheb after the death of my father on 6th April 1991. Even earlier to that my father would send me to the ancestral village along with him. He would also accompany me to see matches for my niece, Gilloo.

After the death of my father on 6th April, 1991 (curiously he also died on a 6th ), I used to visit Fatehpur at least twice in a year for over 10 days each time. He used to my friend, philosopher and guide at Fatehpur. Each day at Fatehpur with him had the following schedule:

1. Leave for morning walk 5.30/6 am.

2. Return after walk 7 am.

3. Havan 8 am.

4. Breakfast 8.30 am.

5. Meet again in the afternoon as per convenience. Generally we discussed spiritual matters.

6. Evening walk and visit different persons 6 pm.

7. Return from evening walk etc. 8 pm.

8. Discussions on spiritual matters 8 pm to about 9.30 pm.

9. Disperse for sleep.

10. The same routine was followed next day.

But for his help and handling of the management of the farm in my village, I would not have been able to take care of the same for about 20 years after the death of my father. He always accompanied me to the village. Even during the life time of my late father, he accompanied me to the village as my father due to old age could not go there. We traveled by bus and other means of transport. In one instance I remember to have travelled with him in a horse driven cart. The other passengers besides us were a villager and his two goats. I remember the she goat during the journey drenched me with its urine. Naresh Bhaisaheb was quite disturbed seeing my embarrassment. He was loving and caring. He was over 13 years senior to me in age.

After he touched 80, he started feeling difficulty in walking, so much so that he became completely incapable of walking about 3 years prior to his demise. He was in the 86th year when he died. He died on 6th November and he was born on 30th July .He loved his wife.After her death a couple of years before his death, he was quite depressed. For the first time I found that he was quite concerned with his ailments, inability to walk, stiffening body parts so much so that he did not talk spiritual. He invariably talked abut Vedas, Upnishads and other scriptures. I sent him a copy my blog which I wrote on return to Delhi to revive his interest in spiritual matters. I met him last on 6th Oct,2011 in his house. One month later he died. He was a staunch follower ofArya Samaj.

Copy of the blog dated 12th October,2011

Naresh Bhaisaheb and My Father

"On 11th October completed morning program. In chamber from 12.30 to 3.30 pm. The parents of Lt. Col. Jain came and discussed their son's case.Lt.Col.is at a place which is about 200 kms.away and up from Leh.BSNL lines are difficult to connect.You get a line sometime.We faced it when we were there for a holiday sometime back.We got Delhi occasionally.The father tried to connect so that Lt. Col. could talk to me,but could not.

Today is Venita's birthday.Wished her many happy returns of the day. Blessed her too.She said that she would like to go to Devi temples in Himachal Pradesh, namely Jwalaji,Chintpurni & Chamundaji. The journey to these temples is via Chandigarh by road. It is a long journey from Chandigarh. I suggested that she could go to Dharmashala by air and from there by road to the temples which could be covered in one day and not much of journey by road was involved. She said that her friend, Mrs. Manorama Gupta, wife of a retired Superintendenting engineer could not afford the cost of air journey.I told that taxi expenses from Chandigarh and back plus train expenses from Delhi to Chandigarh would be more or less equal to expenses by air. But she insisted that she would like to go by road and that the distance was not much from Chandigarh to the temples. I said that her health would not permit long journey. She has spondalitis as also back pain. She still insisted that she would like to go by road. The heated arguments continued for sometime. I left for the chamber. I could not convince her of my viewpoint. At Fatehpur I noticed that Naresh Bhaisaheb was still very keen to walk & prayed to God for power to walk . He had tears in his eyes when he talked to me about his inability to walk.He also told that he could not move his right hand properly. I told him to take these inabilities as blessings of God. As he is 85, there is no place left for him to visit. He still toys with the idea of going to Haradwar and staying in an Ashram. But he cannot move. This is in contrast to the attitude of my father who never complained of his inability to walk, as he used to walk earlier before the age of 80. He wanted to live in his house at Fatehpur and din't want to leave it even for a day.I wish Naresh Bhaisaheb also has the same attitude and should now give up craving for walk and going to any Ashram. I told him so when I met him last on 6th instant. Craving for something is the main cause of suffering, so said Buddha. I am reminded of a story narrated by Gurumaa in course of her discourses. She told that she visited a saint. She was completely bedridden. Seeing Guruma, she welcomed her. She looked quite happy. Gurumaa saw her being cleaned by the disciples. She said to Guruma "Look He has crippled me. But He has provided me tools to take care also." She said this with laughter. I wish Naresh Bhaisaheb also develops the same attitude. Although he cannot move, but he has attendants to take care of him. "

When I told my wife about the state of mind of Naresh Bhaisaheb , she said that it happened towards the end of life. A person forgets spiritual things and becomes more and more temporal. I sent a copy of my blog dated 12th October to Naresh Bhaisaheb by courier. Even after reading it he continued to think of temporal things. His second son was to come from Bangalore to look him up before he died. But he could not come. Till his last breath he was remembering him. His daughter-in-law was telling him to recite OM. Very feebly he once said OM. He could not speak during the last hours..

I will miss him much during my visits to Fatehpur. I pray to God to give peace to the departed soul and strength to the bereaved family to bear the loss and to live amicably..

6th Nov.

Completed morning program.Today is Ekadasi. I have to keep fast as desired by Venita. I find it is good for the system.

Scrutinized the bail application of Sanjiv Saxena. Sent my comments to Piyush.

We have been invited to attend a wedding by a businessman, living in the Society. We have no intention to go.

A news report says that 50% Britons think their children are becoming feral. They are turning their backs on those children. 10% believe that badly behaved children over the age of 10 years are beyond help. It is interesting. In India we never give up and take care of all at all time.

Pilku rang up. He may come to Delhi shortly.

Naresh Bhaisaheb has gone back to Fatehpur. His condition has not improved. He cannot talk and eat. C scan of his head shows that its veins have flattened. He is not fully conscious. The physician who attended him in Halet has advised to take him there after a fortnight. When i was writing this blog, Sangita informed that Bhaisaheb was no more. Let us pray to God to give peace to the departed soul.

Retired to sleep at about 10pm.

5th Nov.

Completed morning program. Talked to Guddu. Naressh Bhaisaheb is still in Halet hospital. He cannot take solid food. He is on liquids. He cannot speak well. His feet are swollen. His thyroid is low in action. I have suggested Guddu to get him examined by an E&T, thyroid and arthritis specialists.

Shanno enquired about Naresh Bhaisaheb. She says that Anjali is in the family way. She is expecting towards the end of December.

It was Sunita's birthday. We wished her good and healthy life. In fact Venita forgot about the birthday. Sunita reminded about it. We felt quite small. She is always prompt in wishing us. Venita, who is encyclopedia of birth dates,slipped this year in respect of Sunita. It is Venita who tells me about all birthdays.We apologized to Sunita. These days Venita is quite worked up in trying to get a maid for cooking.

Akshardham sent prasad of Mahaannkoot. They send every year.

Local MLA invited to attend a wedding in his family.

These days, I am trying to practise Vipassana while i am doing my daily chores. Goenkaji has given guidelines about it.

Retired to sleep at 11.30pm.

4th Nov.

Completed morning program. Attended Tilak ceremony of Shri Agarwall's son at Mukut Regency hotel Vasundhara Gaziabad. Agarwall is Collector Customs Kolkata. Visited Dr. Prasad's place. Mala, daughter of late Ramnath, also lives nearby. Her husband is in jail in cash-for-vote case. He was secretary to Amar Singh. His name is Sanjiv Saxena. Late Ramnath was a neighbor at Fatehpur. Mala was a kid when i first saw her at Fatehpur. Visited her along with Venita. She wanted to meet me. I told her that as i was nearby, i would go to her. Asked her to keep patience and that i would help in the case as much as i can.

Retired to sleep at 11.30pm

3rd Nov.

For lack of time, could go only for a brisk walk for 45 minutes. Could not do pranayam, asans and exercises. I had to reach for a conference at 10 am. Visited PNB. Attended conference. In chamber from 12.30 to 4 pm. JE Atul Ranjan came at 3.30 pm. Discussed his case with his Advocate & CA.. Advocate Rajkamal of the chamber was requested to join and assist.

Retired to sleep at 11pm.

2nd Nov.

Completed morning program. To be able to go to a dinner, hosted by a cousin brother of Venita, did not go to the chamber. It is not possible to combine it with the chamber visit. It is strenuous. I pleaded with Venita. She insisted for dinner.I had to cancel an important conference. I did work on the computer during the day.

Munna came to Delhi on official visit. He is gone to Kanpur. He will go back to Ganganagar along with his family and mother a few days later. His family is already at Fatehgarh. It had come earlier to join in Munna's brother-in-law's engagement ceremony there. His mother appeared to be happy with the prospect of going to Ganganagar with Munna. His mother is my elder sister. For a change she expressed happiness for going to Munna's place. Earlier she used to grumble. I must congratulate Munna and Sapna for the psychological change.It appears they are taking care of her well.

At the dinner at Vasant Vihar Club, met Subhash Sunita,Sashi, Amit, Maltha, his Spanish wife, Lalit, Kanchan, his wife. There were quite a few others. It was Kanchan's birthday. It was a get-together of mainly members of the family. Kanchan did not know about the party. Lalit wanted to give her a surprise. As most pertinently observed by Subhash, relatives from Kanchan's side dominated the numbers as Verma family dominated our parties.

Lalit retired from Railways. If you go to a railway officer's party,you find yourself in the midst of more and more of railway officers. They talk mostly of railway matters. You feel bored. For a change, except for Subhash and Lalit, there were no railway officers. It was a lively party. Every one was talking to everyone. I felt sorry for not being able to talk to Rani Jiji. She came for a short time and left to take her medicines.She looked sick. I will go and meet her shortly. Of course, Venita met her. In her typical style, she castigated me for my failure to meet Rani. Returned home at 11.30pm.

Retired to sleep at 12.15am.

1rst Nov.

Completed morning program. Visited PNB, SBI Vikaspuri, DLTA, CGHS. In chamber from 1 to 3.15 pm. Visited Hanuman temple on way back. Gave birthday good wishes to Sid & Aparna. Vikas called. He has not yet read the case files, i sent him a few days back. He promised to go through the files and then discuss with me within a day or two.

Bhaisaheb's condition has improved. His thyroid is enlarged. His treatment has started.

Retired to sleep at11pm.

31st October

Completed morning program. Visited PNB, SBI Vikaspuri,PBB and CGHS. Pravesh wanted to discuss a case. In fact he said that a reputed firm desired to appoint me as a consultant. When I rang him up he was not available. Hence the meeting could not take place. Now it is scheduled to take place on Wednesday the 2nd November. In chamber from 1.15-3.15pm. Naresh Bhaisaheb is shifted to a private hospital in Kanpur. He has been put on oxygen and glucose. A number of tests have been done and their results showed no abnormality of any kind. The doctors said that stiffness of his body as well as loss of appetite were due to a number of painkillers taken by him as prescribed by the doctors at Fatehpur. His treatment will start from tomorrow.

The painkillers do not get absorbed in our body. They get deposited in liver and other vital parts. They cause problems like those which Naresh Bhaisaheb is now facing.

Ex-DYSP, CBI, Kaushik came and wanted me to handle a revision petition in the court of Addl. sessions judge, Saket. I told him I don't go to lower courts. Then he went away telling that he would come to me when the matter goes to the High court. He was sure that his revision petition would be rejected by the session court. If he is so sure of dismissal of his revision petition, how he can expect that the High court would entertain the appeal and give him a favorable order.

Retired to sleep at 11pm.