Thursday, March 31, 2011
29th and 30th March
On 29th visited CGHS for collection of medicines,Alopathic and Ayurvedic. Before coming up to my room met Mr.SS Sharma,IAS (Rtd), in charge LPO, as also Ms. Neha Gupta in the basement. I will try to give them some work as it appears they don't have much. In chamber from 1-3.30pm. Visited Hanuman temple in Chanakyapuri. On 30th visited PNB to check on the transfer of money to Ajju.In chamber 12.15-2.30 pm. Watched the Semi-final of World Cup between India & Pakistan up to midnight. India had a thrilling victory. Retired to sleep at 12pm.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
28th March
Completed morning program. Visited Punjab National Bank and transferred a sum of Rs.20,000/- to the account of Ajju for expenses in connection with salary , medical treatment of the caretaker and his family and general maintenance of the ancestral house. I had given Rs.2,800/- for the treatment of the caretaker's wife and now another Rs.5000/- for the purpose to Ajju and Rs.15,000/- to Naresh Bhaisahab for salary and other maintenance expenses. Visited CGHS. In chamber from 1.15-4.30pm. There has been a good deal expenditure during last about 2 months. The basic sum of rupees 3 lacs 50 thousand [received by me as gratuity in 2004(as far as I remember)] has come down to rupees 1 lac 43 thousand only. It is likely to go down further as I have to pay some more bills.
Retired to sleep at 11pm.
Retired to sleep at 11pm.
Vipassana III
16.03.11, Wednesday: Arrived Sohona Dhamma Center at Rakha gaon on Ballabgarh Sohna road, district Gurgaon at 4.45pm. Completed registration formalities. I have been given room no. M-11 in block A. There is improvement in the facilities: such as tile fitted toilets, general cleanliness, cleaner linen etc. As service of tea to the visitors had finished I gave driver Thapa Rs.50/- to have it on the way. In the morning Venita attempted to persuade me to abandon the idea of going to the Center. But I told her that I was committed to Goenkaji to join at least one 10 day course every year as advised by him in his discourses. In fact I asked her to come over and join the course along with me. She said she had other commitments in connection with the management of a small temple within the premises of the society. She has done one course in 2010.
After a mini meal of Khichdi , a glass of milk and a banana at 6pm, the briefing for the course was done by a Dhamma Sevak with the help of an audio tape. I did not take khichdi as I was on ekadashi fast. Venita had given some cutlets made of sabudana, ground nuts with sendha salt. I took only a glass of milk and banana. The briefing centered round rules of the Ashram. Observance of complete silence was emphasized and other details of rules regarding our living in Ashram, were explained. After the briefing we were given seat numbers in Dhamma hall. We occupied them by 8pm. Goenkaji’s briefing started thereafter through an audiotape. He explained the process of ‘Ana Pan’, that is, incoming and outgoing breath, awareness of the same. The mind, which goes here and there has to be brought back by constant effort to the observation of the breath. The process sharpens the mind. Goenkaji advocated surrender to Buddha (Bodhi in us), Dhamma (The law of nature) and Sangha (The company of liberated individuals/saints), which were termed as 3 gems of the existence. The discourse ended at 9 pm. We retired to sleep at 9.30pm.
17.03.11, Thursday: We started meditation at 4.30 am. Goenkaji’s discourse started at 5.50 am continued till 6.30 am. He explained as to why it was necessary to observe the breath. Breath is a bridge between body and mind. The observation of it leads to the realization of truth as also the ultimate truth. After breakfast, we had group meditation from 8am to 9am. Goenkaji further explained the process of Ana Pan. From 9 am to 10.15 am, he advised the old students (me too) to shorten the area of observation of breath over the upper lip and below nostrils. The thinner the breath (and of course awareness of it) the sharper will be the mind. But at no time we should loose sight of it. He invoked us to fulfill the 10 Parmiks regularly ( I have given details of these Parmiks in my note dated 13.03.09 on Vipassana I ). They will ultimately lead us to complete liberation from the miseries of life. In the evening discourse he again reiterated the importance of observing the breath. Retired to sleep at 9.30pm after a meditation of about 12 hours: 4.30-6.30am, 8-11am, 1-5pm, 6-9pm(including video taped discourse of Goenkaji) .
18.03.11, Friday: The same routine. Watching the breath. Today I had some pain in the waist when I got up at 4 am, but it disappeared after 4.30 am, when I started meditation. Such is the nature of these evanescent sensations. Goenkaji tells us not to react to such sensations. Observe them and slowly they will disappear. In the evening discourse Goenkaji emphasized the need to observe the breath inside the nostrils and in the area below the nostrils and above the upper lip to know about any sensations there. If there are no sensations we are advised to continue observing the breath inside the nostrils. Retired to sleep at 9.30 pm.
19.03.11, Saturday: The routine was as before. When I was walking to the Dhamma hall at about 8 am, I saw a peacock dancing with its multi-colored feathers in a semi circular way around itself in fullness on the roof of pagoda. The audience to the dance of the peacock consisted of two she peacocks and one peacock. The dancing peacock was at the lowest roof of the pagoda, the she peacocks were on one layer above it and another peacock on the layer just below the top of pagoda. It was misty at 8 o’clock in the morning with the light spread of about 9 watt bulb. One of the two she peacocks was watching the show with rapt attention and total infatuation and the other was trying to open her feathers to copy the peacock. She peacocks do not have large feathers. The peacock near the top of the pagoda was watching with its tilted neck, not just quite happy with the attention the dancing peacock was getting from the two she peacocks. I had to rush to Dhamma hall to join in the group meditation at 8 am. I don’t know what happened to the dancing peacock later. I got engrossed in meditation. It is said that during the dancing of the peacock a foam like substance comes out from its mouth. After it has fallen on the ground it is pecked by the she peacocks. They lay eggs for new life after sometime. I could not concentrate well in the meditation till about 11am including for about 2 hours in the allotted cell of the pagoda. In the afternoon Goenkaji advised to stop breath for half a minute and then see if there were any sensations in the area between nostrils and the upper lip. I tried this. I felt a kind of coolness which was usually not felt. In the evening discourse Goenkaji said that during Vipassana meditation, i.e., meditation for wisdom, 3 truths came to our knowledge, i) Truth of change, ii) Truth of impermanence, iii) Truth of no solidity : only waves of vibrations. Retired to sleep at 9.30 pm.
20.03.11, Sunday : Today is Holi. People play it with colors. Nothing here. Since yesterday I am hearing drum beats with occasional shouts of people: “Holi Hai”. Today also it continued. For good reasons we are not allowed to go outside. There is complete maun. Today as before we practiced Ana Pan, watching the breath inside the nostrils and in the are above the upper lip and below nostrils. I was unstable throughout today during the practice of Ana Pan. Later in the afternoon Goenkaji introduced us to the technique of Vipassana. He took away our mind from the area between upper lips and nostrils to watch sensations in different parts of the body. In this technique we start observation of the sensations from the top of the head (Bramhand) to entire skull, to different parts of the face, to the right shoulder to upper arm to elbow to lower arm to wrist to palm and fingertips. Thereafter we watch the sensations in the same sequence starting from the left shoulder, then from throat to the chest, to abdomen to right thigh to knee to leg to ankle to heel to fingers and with the same sequence in the left leg also. Thereafter from neck to upper back to lower back to waist and other lower parts of the body. While observing the various parts of the body we have to observe various kinds of sensations and know them. Where no sensations are seen we should stop for a minute and then go to other parts of the body as per sequence. There are sensations in every part of the body all the time. The cells of the body are creating and destroying and in the process vibrating and generating a sensation. Change is taking place every moment. There is no permanence. According to Goenkaji , this knowledge will lead us to non attachment. Change is the Dhamma and law of nature. Retired to sleep at 9.15 pm.
21.03.11, Monday : Even today the songs continued in the air keeping tempo of Holi high in the vicinity. No celebration or even talk of Holi in the Ashram. All of us are observing total silence which is called Arya maun. The routine was as usual. Vipassana meditation is practiced by all. I am now quite comfortable in its practice. The time would pass so quickly. Due to some strain in the left knee area in course of Bajra Asan at Delhi sometime back, I had to go for rehabilitation about 3 months back, take exercises and wax bath of the knees for over 2 months. There was no pain after this. But I cannot complete Adhisthan of one hour here sitting without movement due to lingering pain after half an hour in the left knee. The pain has appeared again due to sitting for about 13/14 hours in meditation. I had no problem in meditation for one hour without movement at home. But here hours are much more. I requested the teacher to allow me to sit in the chair for Adhisthan period of meditation during 3 group sittings, but he did not allow. He said I should have taken the chair at the beginning of the course as some others had done. I said I did not require it on a regular basis. Now I find it difficult to sit in one position without movement and that I wanted chair only for 3 periods during the 3 group sittings and not for other hours, but he did not allow. I had no alternative but to carry on without observing Adhisthan as ordained by Goenkaji and do it as much as I could without difficulty. He said that if he allowed me to sit on the chair for the fulfillment of Goenkaji’s command for Adhisthan, it will be tantamount to mixing water with milk. I did not understand the meaning of the proverb. In the evening discourse Goenkaji explained the four noble truths, i.e., there is misery, there is cause of misery, there is method to do away the misery and the Ashtang marg. Vipassana is technique by which anyone can get rid of misery by developing equanimity.
The teacher told on my query that there were 3 compilations of Buddha Vani. One is meant for bhikshu, the second contains sutras which are recited by Goenkaji during his briefing and discourses and the 3rd contains discourses in various matters such as kinds of minds etc. The 3rd compilation is known as Abhidhan Pitek. It gives description of details of 121 kinds of mind and 51 kinds chitta vritiyan. Goenkaji said these could broadly be grouped into four: Cognizance, Recognition, Evaluation and Reaction. We were also told to practice Vipassana from right foot and then from the left, to abdomen to chest to right hand and then left hand, and then from throat to face to head in this sequence, then from waist to back to neck, and thereafter from head to toes and toes to head. Retired to sleep at 9.30pm.
22.03.11, Tuesday : The routine was as before. Unless I can observe sensations, pulsating the entire body I have not achieved what the practice should lead me to. I get the subtle sensations but not the flow of them throughout the body or part of it. However on 20th I felt a flow of warmth all over the body. In course of the discourse, Goenkaji said that there should however be no craving for a sensation. If the sensation is there in any part of the body, we should go to other parts of the body and so on so forth. Retired to sleep at 9.30pm.
23.03.11, Wednesday: The routine was as before. In the discourse Goenkaji talked about five friends. Yesterday he had talked about five enemies. I have given details of these in my previous Vipassana notes of 2009 and 2010. Retired to sleep at 9.30pm.
24.03.11, Thursday: The routine was as before. In his discourse, Goenkaji said that if your mind was equanimous, you were bound to feel the subtle sensations. Retired to sleep at 9.30pm.
25.03.11, Friday: The routine was as usual. Today a new technique of meditation was enunciated. It is known as ‘Bhang Gyan’. In this you mentally pierce through the different parts of the body and feel the sensations inside, so much so that you feel that there are only vibrations and no solidity in the body. Mind and matter dissolve. But when some old sensations come up , then again we loose sight of the experience. They put a curtain on them. If we keep ourselves equanimous then the ‘sanskars’ dissolve. We have to continue the meditation to get to know the sensations in each part, the flow of sensations in parts or full body and finally Bhang Gyan. But in each state we have to keep ourselves equanimous. The purpose is to know the ultimate nature of mind and matter, which is changing and in the process to keep our equanimity to rid ourselves of the main causes of the miseries of life : craving, aversion and attachment. These are there in us in the form of ‘sanskars’. These have to be eradicated by knowing the true nature of mind and matter. The world around us is a replica of our body and mind. It is also changing every moment. When you are in the process of meditation you get to realize the ultimate truth: which is Dhamma or law of Nature. It is universal, it is pure love, good will for all. There is no negativity in it. Retired to sleep at 9.15pm.
26.03.11, Saturday: Morning program was the same upto 9 am. From 9.15 am, Goenkaji conducted a session of Mitta sadhana in which we pray for the welfare of all. Saw a documentary on the opening ceremony of World Pagoda Hall by the President of India in 2009 in Mumbai. It was anchored by Sh.Subhash Chandra, owner of Zee Tv. In the afternoon again we did Mitta sadhana. Goenkaji said that if our mind was equanimous we were bound to feel subtle sensations. In the evening discourse he summarized the content of the course. He said that one had to take refuge in triple gems : Buddha, Dhamma and Sangh. One has to take refuge in Dhamma in oneself. Dhamma is law of nature and universal. Sheel , Samadhi and pragya are the practical aspects of Dhamma. Interacted with other sadhaks . One is from Switzerland, one from Sweden and quite a few from other overseas countries. One is MBA from Ahmadabad, one a professor Emeritus of the Institute of Informatics, one an author, one a physician, one a retired sale tax commissioner and quite a few are businessmen. Kiran Bedi visited the Vipassana Center today. Could not meet her.
I did not advance much in meditation this time, perhaps due to inability to fulfill Adhistan of one hour each during group sittings. Some of the Dhamma sevaks were discourteous. I brought it to the notice of teacher. Retired to sleep at 9.30 pm.
27.03.11, Sunday : After Mitta sadhana, we took breakfast and left the center. Visited MP Bej Baruah and Neha/Bablu at Gurgaon on way back from Sohana. Retired to sleep at 10pm.
After a mini meal of Khichdi , a glass of milk and a banana at 6pm, the briefing for the course was done by a Dhamma Sevak with the help of an audio tape. I did not take khichdi as I was on ekadashi fast. Venita had given some cutlets made of sabudana, ground nuts with sendha salt. I took only a glass of milk and banana. The briefing centered round rules of the Ashram. Observance of complete silence was emphasized and other details of rules regarding our living in Ashram, were explained. After the briefing we were given seat numbers in Dhamma hall. We occupied them by 8pm. Goenkaji’s briefing started thereafter through an audiotape. He explained the process of ‘Ana Pan’, that is, incoming and outgoing breath, awareness of the same. The mind, which goes here and there has to be brought back by constant effort to the observation of the breath. The process sharpens the mind. Goenkaji advocated surrender to Buddha (Bodhi in us), Dhamma (The law of nature) and Sangha (The company of liberated individuals/saints), which were termed as 3 gems of the existence. The discourse ended at 9 pm. We retired to sleep at 9.30pm.
17.03.11, Thursday: We started meditation at 4.30 am. Goenkaji’s discourse started at 5.50 am continued till 6.30 am. He explained as to why it was necessary to observe the breath. Breath is a bridge between body and mind. The observation of it leads to the realization of truth as also the ultimate truth. After breakfast, we had group meditation from 8am to 9am. Goenkaji further explained the process of Ana Pan. From 9 am to 10.15 am, he advised the old students (me too) to shorten the area of observation of breath over the upper lip and below nostrils. The thinner the breath (and of course awareness of it) the sharper will be the mind. But at no time we should loose sight of it. He invoked us to fulfill the 10 Parmiks regularly ( I have given details of these Parmiks in my note dated 13.03.09 on Vipassana I ). They will ultimately lead us to complete liberation from the miseries of life. In the evening discourse he again reiterated the importance of observing the breath. Retired to sleep at 9.30pm after a meditation of about 12 hours: 4.30-6.30am, 8-11am, 1-5pm, 6-9pm(including video taped discourse of Goenkaji) .
18.03.11, Friday: The same routine. Watching the breath. Today I had some pain in the waist when I got up at 4 am, but it disappeared after 4.30 am, when I started meditation. Such is the nature of these evanescent sensations. Goenkaji tells us not to react to such sensations. Observe them and slowly they will disappear. In the evening discourse Goenkaji emphasized the need to observe the breath inside the nostrils and in the area below the nostrils and above the upper lip to know about any sensations there. If there are no sensations we are advised to continue observing the breath inside the nostrils. Retired to sleep at 9.30 pm.
19.03.11, Saturday: The routine was as before. When I was walking to the Dhamma hall at about 8 am, I saw a peacock dancing with its multi-colored feathers in a semi circular way around itself in fullness on the roof of pagoda. The audience to the dance of the peacock consisted of two she peacocks and one peacock. The dancing peacock was at the lowest roof of the pagoda, the she peacocks were on one layer above it and another peacock on the layer just below the top of pagoda. It was misty at 8 o’clock in the morning with the light spread of about 9 watt bulb. One of the two she peacocks was watching the show with rapt attention and total infatuation and the other was trying to open her feathers to copy the peacock. She peacocks do not have large feathers. The peacock near the top of the pagoda was watching with its tilted neck, not just quite happy with the attention the dancing peacock was getting from the two she peacocks. I had to rush to Dhamma hall to join in the group meditation at 8 am. I don’t know what happened to the dancing peacock later. I got engrossed in meditation. It is said that during the dancing of the peacock a foam like substance comes out from its mouth. After it has fallen on the ground it is pecked by the she peacocks. They lay eggs for new life after sometime. I could not concentrate well in the meditation till about 11am including for about 2 hours in the allotted cell of the pagoda. In the afternoon Goenkaji advised to stop breath for half a minute and then see if there were any sensations in the area between nostrils and the upper lip. I tried this. I felt a kind of coolness which was usually not felt. In the evening discourse Goenkaji said that during Vipassana meditation, i.e., meditation for wisdom, 3 truths came to our knowledge, i) Truth of change, ii) Truth of impermanence, iii) Truth of no solidity : only waves of vibrations. Retired to sleep at 9.30 pm.
20.03.11, Sunday : Today is Holi. People play it with colors. Nothing here. Since yesterday I am hearing drum beats with occasional shouts of people: “Holi Hai”. Today also it continued. For good reasons we are not allowed to go outside. There is complete maun. Today as before we practiced Ana Pan, watching the breath inside the nostrils and in the are above the upper lip and below nostrils. I was unstable throughout today during the practice of Ana Pan. Later in the afternoon Goenkaji introduced us to the technique of Vipassana. He took away our mind from the area between upper lips and nostrils to watch sensations in different parts of the body. In this technique we start observation of the sensations from the top of the head (Bramhand) to entire skull, to different parts of the face, to the right shoulder to upper arm to elbow to lower arm to wrist to palm and fingertips. Thereafter we watch the sensations in the same sequence starting from the left shoulder, then from throat to the chest, to abdomen to right thigh to knee to leg to ankle to heel to fingers and with the same sequence in the left leg also. Thereafter from neck to upper back to lower back to waist and other lower parts of the body. While observing the various parts of the body we have to observe various kinds of sensations and know them. Where no sensations are seen we should stop for a minute and then go to other parts of the body as per sequence. There are sensations in every part of the body all the time. The cells of the body are creating and destroying and in the process vibrating and generating a sensation. Change is taking place every moment. There is no permanence. According to Goenkaji , this knowledge will lead us to non attachment. Change is the Dhamma and law of nature. Retired to sleep at 9.15 pm.
21.03.11, Monday : Even today the songs continued in the air keeping tempo of Holi high in the vicinity. No celebration or even talk of Holi in the Ashram. All of us are observing total silence which is called Arya maun. The routine was as usual. Vipassana meditation is practiced by all. I am now quite comfortable in its practice. The time would pass so quickly. Due to some strain in the left knee area in course of Bajra Asan at Delhi sometime back, I had to go for rehabilitation about 3 months back, take exercises and wax bath of the knees for over 2 months. There was no pain after this. But I cannot complete Adhisthan of one hour here sitting without movement due to lingering pain after half an hour in the left knee. The pain has appeared again due to sitting for about 13/14 hours in meditation. I had no problem in meditation for one hour without movement at home. But here hours are much more. I requested the teacher to allow me to sit in the chair for Adhisthan period of meditation during 3 group sittings, but he did not allow. He said I should have taken the chair at the beginning of the course as some others had done. I said I did not require it on a regular basis. Now I find it difficult to sit in one position without movement and that I wanted chair only for 3 periods during the 3 group sittings and not for other hours, but he did not allow. I had no alternative but to carry on without observing Adhisthan as ordained by Goenkaji and do it as much as I could without difficulty. He said that if he allowed me to sit on the chair for the fulfillment of Goenkaji’s command for Adhisthan, it will be tantamount to mixing water with milk. I did not understand the meaning of the proverb. In the evening discourse Goenkaji explained the four noble truths, i.e., there is misery, there is cause of misery, there is method to do away the misery and the Ashtang marg. Vipassana is technique by which anyone can get rid of misery by developing equanimity.
The teacher told on my query that there were 3 compilations of Buddha Vani. One is meant for bhikshu, the second contains sutras which are recited by Goenkaji during his briefing and discourses and the 3rd contains discourses in various matters such as kinds of minds etc. The 3rd compilation is known as Abhidhan Pitek. It gives description of details of 121 kinds of mind and 51 kinds chitta vritiyan. Goenkaji said these could broadly be grouped into four: Cognizance, Recognition, Evaluation and Reaction. We were also told to practice Vipassana from right foot and then from the left, to abdomen to chest to right hand and then left hand, and then from throat to face to head in this sequence, then from waist to back to neck, and thereafter from head to toes and toes to head. Retired to sleep at 9.30pm.
22.03.11, Tuesday : The routine was as before. Unless I can observe sensations, pulsating the entire body I have not achieved what the practice should lead me to. I get the subtle sensations but not the flow of them throughout the body or part of it. However on 20th I felt a flow of warmth all over the body. In course of the discourse, Goenkaji said that there should however be no craving for a sensation. If the sensation is there in any part of the body, we should go to other parts of the body and so on so forth. Retired to sleep at 9.30pm.
23.03.11, Wednesday: The routine was as before. In the discourse Goenkaji talked about five friends. Yesterday he had talked about five enemies. I have given details of these in my previous Vipassana notes of 2009 and 2010. Retired to sleep at 9.30pm.
24.03.11, Thursday: The routine was as before. In his discourse, Goenkaji said that if your mind was equanimous, you were bound to feel the subtle sensations. Retired to sleep at 9.30pm.
25.03.11, Friday: The routine was as usual. Today a new technique of meditation was enunciated. It is known as ‘Bhang Gyan’. In this you mentally pierce through the different parts of the body and feel the sensations inside, so much so that you feel that there are only vibrations and no solidity in the body. Mind and matter dissolve. But when some old sensations come up , then again we loose sight of the experience. They put a curtain on them. If we keep ourselves equanimous then the ‘sanskars’ dissolve. We have to continue the meditation to get to know the sensations in each part, the flow of sensations in parts or full body and finally Bhang Gyan. But in each state we have to keep ourselves equanimous. The purpose is to know the ultimate nature of mind and matter, which is changing and in the process to keep our equanimity to rid ourselves of the main causes of the miseries of life : craving, aversion and attachment. These are there in us in the form of ‘sanskars’. These have to be eradicated by knowing the true nature of mind and matter. The world around us is a replica of our body and mind. It is also changing every moment. When you are in the process of meditation you get to realize the ultimate truth: which is Dhamma or law of Nature. It is universal, it is pure love, good will for all. There is no negativity in it. Retired to sleep at 9.15pm.
26.03.11, Saturday: Morning program was the same upto 9 am. From 9.15 am, Goenkaji conducted a session of Mitta sadhana in which we pray for the welfare of all. Saw a documentary on the opening ceremony of World Pagoda Hall by the President of India in 2009 in Mumbai. It was anchored by Sh.Subhash Chandra, owner of Zee Tv. In the afternoon again we did Mitta sadhana. Goenkaji said that if our mind was equanimous we were bound to feel subtle sensations. In the evening discourse he summarized the content of the course. He said that one had to take refuge in triple gems : Buddha, Dhamma and Sangh. One has to take refuge in Dhamma in oneself. Dhamma is law of nature and universal. Sheel , Samadhi and pragya are the practical aspects of Dhamma. Interacted with other sadhaks . One is from Switzerland, one from Sweden and quite a few from other overseas countries. One is MBA from Ahmadabad, one a professor Emeritus of the Institute of Informatics, one an author, one a physician, one a retired sale tax commissioner and quite a few are businessmen. Kiran Bedi visited the Vipassana Center today. Could not meet her.
I did not advance much in meditation this time, perhaps due to inability to fulfill Adhistan of one hour each during group sittings. Some of the Dhamma sevaks were discourteous. I brought it to the notice of teacher. Retired to sleep at 9.30 pm.
27.03.11, Sunday : After Mitta sadhana, we took breakfast and left the center. Visited MP Bej Baruah and Neha/Bablu at Gurgaon on way back from Sohana. Retired to sleep at 10pm.
15th March
Completed morning program. Visited Punjab National Bank for correction in the fixed deposit receipt. Visited Sai temple on Lodhi road to hand over spare medicines to the doctor in charge for giving them to the poor people. In chamber from 12.45-2.30pm. Retired to sleep at 10.45pm.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
14th March
Today was our 44th Marriage Anniversary. We had to attend a dinner in the Fountain Lawns in the India International Center in connection with the wedding reception of the son of Sh Rangan Dutta IAS(Rtd), a friend of mine. We met quite a few friends and celebrated our Anniversary quietly without anyone coming to know of it. We liked Jain Food served in the reception.
Visited AIIMS along with Pradeep Bhatnagar and showed the blood and slide study report to Dr Renu Saxsena, hamotologist. She said that the treatment of Yash was on the correct line. Even if Yash is admitted in AIIMS, he will be given the same treatment which has been given/is being given in Fortis Noida.Of course the cost in AIIMS will be much less.We have to decide whether we would like him to be admitted in AIIMS.Pradeep said that it was better that Yash continued in Noida and goes to Fortis for transfusion of platelets or blood whenever required.The blood donors all are available in Noida and may be difficult to find them in Delhi.At present the donors come from Pradeep`s office.We will have to watch Yash for 3 months and thereafter take the advice of Dr Renu Saxsena for further treatment ,if necessary.
Today i was on the road in vehicle for 4 hrs.attended chambers from 1:20 pm to 3:30 pm.retre to sleep at 11 pm.
Visited AIIMS along with Pradeep Bhatnagar and showed the blood and slide study report to Dr Renu Saxsena, hamotologist. She said that the treatment of Yash was on the correct line. Even if Yash is admitted in AIIMS, he will be given the same treatment which has been given/is being given in Fortis Noida.Of course the cost in AIIMS will be much less.We have to decide whether we would like him to be admitted in AIIMS.Pradeep said that it was better that Yash continued in Noida and goes to Fortis for transfusion of platelets or blood whenever required.The blood donors all are available in Noida and may be difficult to find them in Delhi.At present the donors come from Pradeep`s office.We will have to watch Yash for 3 months and thereafter take the advice of Dr Renu Saxsena for further treatment ,if necessary.
Today i was on the road in vehicle for 4 hrs.attended chambers from 1:20 pm to 3:30 pm.retre to sleep at 11 pm.
Monday, March 14, 2011
9th to 13th March
On 9th visited Safdarjung hospital and thereafter CGHS.In chambers from 1-3.15pm. Yash was given platelets today. He will again be tested either on Sunday or Saturday.On 10th visited CGHS. In chambers from 12.35-2.45pm. Yash is stable.On 11th visited AIIMS & met Dr.Renu Saxena.After perusal of Yash's paper,shown by Pradeep,she instructed Dr.Avinash to make a study of slides & some blood tests. Collected report on study of chromosomes from Sir Gangaram hospital.The study was to point out if there were genetic reasons for a aplastic anemia with which Yash is suffering.The report shows a normal study & there is no genetic reason for the ailment. In chamber from 1.30-2.30 pm. On 12th visited AIIMS and met Dr.Renu Saxena, head of the Hematology department, again and on her instructions gave slides and blood sample of Yash for study and tests to Dr.Gurmeet. Visited US Shoppe and paid a sum of Rs.63,000/- by cheque for 3 O-general Acs. The old ACs have been purchased by them for Rs.10050/- only. On 13th attended a meeting of the society, in which the local MLA was present. Conducted the meeting. I was not very keen to attend it but Sh.Bharadwaj, General Secretary, insisted. In fact the purpose was to invoke the MLA for some welfare projects in the society. Retired to sleep at 10.30pm.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
8th March
Completed morning program.Visited chamber from 12am-3.30pm.Yash is required to be given platelets again.These have come down from 70,000 to 8,000. However hemoglobin is 13 and white cells 8%,which is good. Tomorrow he will have to be given platelets for which Pradeep has made arrangement,it costs about Rs.20,000/- for infusion of platelets which are taken out from donated blood. No blood is required to be given as hemoglobin is at the right level. Visited Hanuman temple in Chanakyapuri on way back home.
Retired to sleep at 10.45pm
Retired to sleep at 10.45pm
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
25th February to 7th March
On 25th visited CGHS.Collected medicines and permission for tests.In chambers from 1-3pm. Visited Fortis Noida,met Dr.Ojha,Gita and waived to Yash.Yash and Gita are in sterialised room, where only nurses go. I could waive to Yash from outside through the glass window. He is inside the room since the process of ATG injections started. Met Dr.Ojha and he said that Yash could go back home after the course of injections was over. There was minor bleeding at the time of setting Cather. It made Gita quite disturbed. I consoled her and told that it was not at all serious, that she should be cheerful before Yash. After Yash shifts to home he will have to come to the hospital when transfusion of blood/platelates become necessary. All precautions have to be taken so that Yash does not get infection. His immune system is weak. Visited Gita's place and sent a request to Sh.Ashok, Director Fortis Noida, to charge us for medicines/injections at discounted market rates. Gita looked blackish, sickly. Yash was all right. On 26th visited Center for Sight for Eye check up. Venita is advised to come after 3 months and myself after 2 months. So far as I am concerned I think I don't require to go there anymore. Venita's eye sight in the right eye is stabilizing and so far as my left eye is concerned in which cataract operation was done, there is no scope for further improvement of the vision. Went to Balaji Dental center for capping of Venita's tooth. Now she is to go there on 3rd March. Yash's condition is as before. No improvement. Today 3rd ATG injections is given and tomorrow is the last one. I told Pradeep to send papers to Dinesh for consultation in Tata Cancer institute in Mumbai, which is near his house. I will send the papers through SP Vellore for check up in Vellore cancer institute. On 27th Yash's condition is as before. We are now in the process on mobilizing funds for his treatment. On 28th visited Fortis Noida and discussed the condition of Yash with Dr.Ojha. There is no improvement in the condition, but the effect of ATG injections will be visible only after some days. Visited Atiar's place for a conference at 7pm. Came to know that it was scheduled for tomorrow. It was my mistake to go there today. On 1st March visited Fortis Noida and gave them a cheque for rupees 1 Lac for clearance of the dues of the treatment of Yash.This cheque is given by Subhash. I will have to return the amount. Yesterday I used my CITI bank card and paid an amount of 1 lac and another 80 thousand was drawn by Venita from her accounts and given towards the payment of hospital dues along with rupess 9500 by Bablu and rupees 10500 by Additional credit card of American Express given to me by Pilku rupess amounting to in all 2 lacs. A cheque for Rs.20000/- is also given by Silku to meet the hospital expenses of Yash. Everyone of the family is trying to help as much as he/she can. Even some friends who came to know about Yash's sickness have offered funds. Attended conference in Atiar's place from 7.40 pm to 9.45 pm. On 2nd in chambers from 12.45pm-3.30 pm after dropping Venita at Yashwant's place. Met Neha and Babua at Delhi Hat, where Venita had gone after her work in Yashwant's place. Yash returned home after a stay of over 20 days in the hospital. On 3rd visited Gurgaon to attend Grand parents day celebration in Babua's school namely Shri Ram school. He is a NPA student. It was heart warming experience to see the young ones sing and dance. Visited Babua's classroom, saw his books and exercise books. Met the school principal, whom I had called on earlier for the admission of Silku's daughter. She called Khyati for interview. But Khyati preferred to stay back in her present school. Shri Ram school is 18 year old institution and the most reputed in Gurgaon. Spent time playing with Babua. Visited Balaji dental center for Venita's dental procedure. On 4th visited Dental unit in Safdarjang hospital to consult the dentist about Venita's teeth. Visited CGHS. In chambers from 1.20 to 4.30pm.Venita left for Allahabad by Prayagraj Express .On 5th visited the 2 dealers of O-General air conditioners at Paschim Vihar and Jail Road. Thereafter collected bone marrow and DNA test reports from Sir Ganga Ram hospital. In chambers 2.15- 4 pm. Visited Noida and met Gita, Yash and Pradeep. On 6th some buyers for Godrej ACs came. The maximum amount offered was Rs.9300/- for the 3 ACs. Venita rang up from Allahabad and informed that some doctors there informed that there were 90% chances of recovery after ATG injections. On 7th visited PNB and thereafter CGHS and SBI. In chamber from 1.30pm-4pm. Some buyers came for the old ACs, but their offer was much below Rs.9300/-. Ruchi rang up and said that she was leaving London on 1st April and reaching Delhi on 2nd early morning by BA flight. I told her that she was sure of her visit or trying to make an April fool of us. She said that she would go back on 26th April before the expiry of easter holidays. Retired to sleep at 11pm.
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